OK, Enough of THAT...
Nov. 19th, 2003 01:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
owlkeymeI can't sit here and check my email every 3 seconds waiting for a reply back, or the phone to ring, so I'm moving on, calming myself down, and getting back to my daily, non-spazzy life.
So, with that said....I'd like to thank everyone for their support and kind words regarding yesterday. Contrary to popular belief, I wasn't shocked, surprised, hurt, angry, or really feeling anything regarding that post, except maybe fascination. I pretty much expected it to come from somewhere, given recent developments on other lists concerning people who seem to have a love for proclaiming that they're close-minded, bigoted twats. If you want to go out there and shout your ignorance, immaturity, and piss-poor attitude, well, I ain't going to stop you. I may feel embarrassed for you, shake my head, and sigh...but I just keep shuffling along, doing my thing. I've seen, heard, and been the target of worse in my youth, and I just have to thank the gods for putting me on MY path, and giving me the experience, so that I can learn, know, and do better.
I'll eventually post something in reply, but right now I need to get past smart-ass mode....this has been my progression:
yesterday: "well kiss my ass and call me grits! would you look at that?"
today: "I'm sorry to say, I'm just really embarrassed FOR you."
and there's a little bit of Church Lady going "well isn't THAT special?"
In the meantime, there's been such beautiful posts that I am just in awe and feel contented. Had no intention of chaos ensuing on other lists, but that seems to be contained for the time being....though, that was interesting too.
This is what I really am feeling though: The realization that I've inadvertantly really put myself out there, and I need to be prepared to back myself up to the fullest when presenting the form live in the more traditional venues like Rakkasah. The major points derive back to what I listed a few months ago, about what I need to work on. So, starting in December I'm going to take Rachel B up on her offer about classes, make sure to schedule a private with Azar once every two weeks, and really get focused on my daily plan. I need to make sure that my presentation is as best and as skilled as it can be.
So mote it be (or somejunk).
So, with that said....I'd like to thank everyone for their support and kind words regarding yesterday. Contrary to popular belief, I wasn't shocked, surprised, hurt, angry, or really feeling anything regarding that post, except maybe fascination. I pretty much expected it to come from somewhere, given recent developments on other lists concerning people who seem to have a love for proclaiming that they're close-minded, bigoted twats. If you want to go out there and shout your ignorance, immaturity, and piss-poor attitude, well, I ain't going to stop you. I may feel embarrassed for you, shake my head, and sigh...but I just keep shuffling along, doing my thing. I've seen, heard, and been the target of worse in my youth, and I just have to thank the gods for putting me on MY path, and giving me the experience, so that I can learn, know, and do better.
I'll eventually post something in reply, but right now I need to get past smart-ass mode....this has been my progression:
yesterday: "well kiss my ass and call me grits! would you look at that?"
today: "I'm sorry to say, I'm just really embarrassed FOR you."
and there's a little bit of Church Lady going "well isn't THAT special?"
In the meantime, there's been such beautiful posts that I am just in awe and feel contented. Had no intention of chaos ensuing on other lists, but that seems to be contained for the time being....though, that was interesting too.
This is what I really am feeling though: The realization that I've inadvertantly really put myself out there, and I need to be prepared to back myself up to the fullest when presenting the form live in the more traditional venues like Rakkasah. The major points derive back to what I listed a few months ago, about what I need to work on. So, starting in December I'm going to take Rachel B up on her offer about classes, make sure to schedule a private with Azar once every two weeks, and really get focused on my daily plan. I need to make sure that my presentation is as best and as skilled as it can be.
So mote it be (or somejunk).
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Crazy lady
Date: 2003-11-19 09:39 pm (UTC)Hmm
Date: 2003-11-19 10:10 pm (UTC)Anyway, I hope they contact you back with good news, and QUICK! ;)
Ya know..
Date: 2003-11-19 10:21 pm (UTC)As hard and saddening as it was to lose our Tempestuous One from the East Coast, it is right as far as time goes. You are so incredibly lucky to have found someone like Azar to teach you cabaret (i will admit, it is difficult to learn and even more difficult to forget...) and i am JEALOUS AS ALL HELL that you are gonna take classes with Rachel Brice! *swoon*
Sometimes i think about dropping everything and just moving to SF, living in a cardboard shack and just immersing myself in the dance out there. It is so sparse here, and moreover, it is very stuffy and traditionalist.
For every 10 dancers, there are 5 who have heard about ATS and can define it, but there are only 2 who like it and you're lucky if those two can perform for a decently packed house. Southern New England is not "into" fusion dance...we are riding on the 1970's Cabaret Nightclub scene...and now *drumroll please* they have made an "assosicaton". The last thing we need in this chicken-with-its-head-cut-off-gossipy-competitive community is a UNION.
Point: You go girl, you rock, you pop, you lock and you give it style. And get a tickle knowing that i am veerrrrrryyyyy envious of where you are in life right now.
--Aradia
The Belly Dancing Witch
(another thing i am given guff for)