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so, I've been scouring craigslist for something else I could do for a few weeks now...something that won't obliterate my life (and dignity?)...and today....oh gawd..today, there's a posting for an Art Teacher at a local community type school, for high school kids. I could so do that, and my experience qualifies...oh oh...it's a couple hours a day, every few months....and it could lead to other similar positions in the area...and oh I'm going to be on pins and needles until they write back...can I go interview today?????? *breathe*breathe*update resume*breathe....
Nov. 19th, 2003
OK, Enough of THAT...
Nov. 19th, 2003 01:06 pmI can't sit here and check my email every 3 seconds waiting for a reply back, or the phone to ring, so I'm moving on, calming myself down, and getting back to my daily, non-spazzy life.
So, with that said....I'd like to thank everyone for their support and kind words regarding yesterday. Contrary to popular belief, I wasn't shocked, surprised, hurt, angry, or really feeling anything regarding that post, except maybe fascination. I pretty much expected it to come from somewhere, given recent developments on other lists concerning people who seem to have a love for proclaiming that they're close-minded, bigoted twats. If you want to go out there and shout your ignorance, immaturity, and piss-poor attitude, well, I ain't going to stop you. I may feel embarrassed for you, shake my head, and sigh...but I just keep shuffling along, doing my thing. I've seen, heard, and been the target of worse in my youth, and I just have to thank the gods for putting me on MY path, and giving me the experience, so that I can learn, know, and do better.
I'll eventually post something in reply, but right now I need to get past smart-ass mode....this has been my progression:
yesterday: "well kiss my ass and call me grits! would you look at that?"
today: "I'm sorry to say, I'm just really embarrassed FOR you."
and there's a little bit of Church Lady going "well isn't THAT special?"
In the meantime, there's been such beautiful posts that I am just in awe and feel contented. Had no intention of chaos ensuing on other lists, but that seems to be contained for the time being....though, that was interesting too.
This is what I really am feeling though: The realization that I've inadvertantly really put myself out there, and I need to be prepared to back myself up to the fullest when presenting the form live in the more traditional venues like Rakkasah. The major points derive back to what I listed a few months ago, about what I need to work on. So, starting in December I'm going to take Rachel B up on her offer about classes, make sure to schedule a private with Azar once every two weeks, and really get focused on my daily plan. I need to make sure that my presentation is as best and as skilled as it can be.
So mote it be (or somejunk).
So, with that said....I'd like to thank everyone for their support and kind words regarding yesterday. Contrary to popular belief, I wasn't shocked, surprised, hurt, angry, or really feeling anything regarding that post, except maybe fascination. I pretty much expected it to come from somewhere, given recent developments on other lists concerning people who seem to have a love for proclaiming that they're close-minded, bigoted twats. If you want to go out there and shout your ignorance, immaturity, and piss-poor attitude, well, I ain't going to stop you. I may feel embarrassed for you, shake my head, and sigh...but I just keep shuffling along, doing my thing. I've seen, heard, and been the target of worse in my youth, and I just have to thank the gods for putting me on MY path, and giving me the experience, so that I can learn, know, and do better.
I'll eventually post something in reply, but right now I need to get past smart-ass mode....this has been my progression:
yesterday: "well kiss my ass and call me grits! would you look at that?"
today: "I'm sorry to say, I'm just really embarrassed FOR you."
and there's a little bit of Church Lady going "well isn't THAT special?"
In the meantime, there's been such beautiful posts that I am just in awe and feel contented. Had no intention of chaos ensuing on other lists, but that seems to be contained for the time being....though, that was interesting too.
This is what I really am feeling though: The realization that I've inadvertantly really put myself out there, and I need to be prepared to back myself up to the fullest when presenting the form live in the more traditional venues like Rakkasah. The major points derive back to what I listed a few months ago, about what I need to work on. So, starting in December I'm going to take Rachel B up on her offer about classes, make sure to schedule a private with Azar once every two weeks, and really get focused on my daily plan. I need to make sure that my presentation is as best and as skilled as it can be.
So mote it be (or somejunk).
